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Still learning how to be the best possible father

Sunday, March 4, 2012

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I admit, I'm not perfect.

In any facet of life.

On a daily basis, I still learn new things in my profession.

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James David, flashing a smile for his daddy.
Daily, I learn something new, period.

And I find myself learning how to be a better husband and father often as well.

I'm not very good at it yet.

At least, I don't think so.

But I know I can get better.

Our lives changed dramatically at 10:35 a.m., Oct. 15, 2010.

That was the day James David Miller Moon came into our lives.

Since then, we've had our share of ups and downs.

But there has been one constant: James David and his beautiful smile.

He's had moments where he has hurt himself. Moments where he simply couldn't go to daycare because he was ill.

There have been moments where mommy probably felt like pulling her hair out.

And there have been moments where mommy probably felt like pulling my hair out.

But I wouldn't change one thing.

He is the light of my life. I never understood what people talked about when they discussed their children before.

But I do now.

I do understand the miracle of children.

I gloat about it just like all those other people before me.

When he said, "Da," for the first time, I think I shed a few tears.

When I come home from work after a long evening (if he and his mother are still awake), the scene truly is magical.

I'll open the door and he's either sitting on the floor playing with his toys or sitting in mommy's lap.

But he always welcomes me with "Da!"

It always puts a smile on my face.

These are the moments that parents never forget. These are the moments my father explains to me now, as I've gotten older.

These are the moments I now appreciate.

I may never be the perfect father. But I don't think it is possible.

All I can do is try to be there for him as often as I can.

All I can do is show him the love he deserves.

Nobody is perfect. And far too often, we get wrapped up in our own life and forget life's more simpler joys.

Far too often, we get angry at ourselves or others because things aren't working out the way they should. Or things aren't working out the way they used to.

But parents can always remind themselves of their children and a smile comes across their face.

At least that happens when I think of James David.